I have never had Faith handed to me until now
When Bones was first diagnosed I was crushed. Absolutly crushed. I knew too much about this disease to even let it happen and it happend. And now I was going to find out even more about it. One thing new was that I had a faith in God and I prayed. I prayed every morning, I prayed every night, I prayed and prayed. And the one thing I learned is that you may not like the path your on but it's your path to follow and He is always there.
After Bones surgery I prayed that her scared heals and her lump doesn't come back. She healed just fine, but her lump was growing at a drastic rate. So I prayed that I could treat her. And Universty of Georgia Athens website popped up on a google search. They are doing clinicle trial for Fibrosarcoma in cats. So I let me vet know who was able to gget me into the study.
We were excepted into the study and Bones recieved her Lomustine (chemo drug). I prayed for this to be the magic answer, to make her well, to get rid of the tumor. Of course it didn't happen. By the 3rd blood work she was removed from the study due to non tolerance of the drug. Again I was devestated. But at least I was able to try. God knew how much it meant to me to try to help her. And there was no way I could afford a 2K minimum treatment.
At her very last trip to UGA, after the removal from the study but to ensure her blood count came back, we were sitting in the lobby. there was no one there. The receptionist was on the phone and said "Faith is in the lobby". I about cried. Then a little bit later, there were more people and animal in the lobby now. A lady tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I could hold her dog a moment so she could ues the restroom. I said sure, what is her name. Faith. Please hold Faith for me. Yea I cried all over this poor lab. I needed a little faith and was handed a big one.
It was that morning that the sunrise was big and orange instead of Pink also.
No I didn't like the path, Bones continued to decline. But God was with us in every step, in every motion.
After Bones surgery I prayed that her scared heals and her lump doesn't come back. She healed just fine, but her lump was growing at a drastic rate. So I prayed that I could treat her. And Universty of Georgia Athens website popped up on a google search. They are doing clinicle trial for Fibrosarcoma in cats. So I let me vet know who was able to gget me into the study.
We were excepted into the study and Bones recieved her Lomustine (chemo drug). I prayed for this to be the magic answer, to make her well, to get rid of the tumor. Of course it didn't happen. By the 3rd blood work she was removed from the study due to non tolerance of the drug. Again I was devestated. But at least I was able to try. God knew how much it meant to me to try to help her. And there was no way I could afford a 2K minimum treatment.
At her very last trip to UGA, after the removal from the study but to ensure her blood count came back, we were sitting in the lobby. there was no one there. The receptionist was on the phone and said "Faith is in the lobby". I about cried. Then a little bit later, there were more people and animal in the lobby now. A lady tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I could hold her dog a moment so she could ues the restroom. I said sure, what is her name. Faith. Please hold Faith for me. Yea I cried all over this poor lab. I needed a little faith and was handed a big one.
It was that morning that the sunrise was big and orange instead of Pink also.
No I didn't like the path, Bones continued to decline. But God was with us in every step, in every motion.
Aug. 3rd 2010
Bones had actualy stoped eating this morning althought I would not let myself belive it. I just got antibiotics for herr, I wanted her to give the 10 days to heal so I could decide what the next step was. I planted some cat grass for her outside to enjoy also. But when I got home, she was lethgartic, the infection was rampid and you could now smell it 2 feet away. My noramally happy go lucky cat was not happy. She was misrable. And there is nothing that made my heart sink more. She threw up. I prayed God to take her that night.
She wouldn't come to bed with me so I grabed a blanket and laid int he dinning room floor with her. I prayed Dear God, please if it is time tongiht please dont let her suffer through it, please take her as your own. If you do let her go through the night please give me one more ear prick, one more purr." I hadn't heard a purr in a while. She usally purred just looking at her.
That mornign I opened my eyes, she was looking at me with pricked ears. I smiles and told her I loved her that maybe I was over reacting that it wasn't time. She threw up and refused all foods and treats. My heart sank. No it was still time. God just prinked her ears one last time for me.
Since it was Wednesday the clinic is opened early to take in surgery clients. I hated to surprize them. We got there and I ran in to let them know then sat in my car with Bones until 8am. Ihad my hand in the carrier petting her and she purred, oh she purred for me. Thank you dear God thank you.
She wouldn't come to bed with me so I grabed a blanket and laid int he dinning room floor with her. I prayed Dear God, please if it is time tongiht please dont let her suffer through it, please take her as your own. If you do let her go through the night please give me one more ear prick, one more purr." I hadn't heard a purr in a while. She usally purred just looking at her.
That mornign I opened my eyes, she was looking at me with pricked ears. I smiles and told her I loved her that maybe I was over reacting that it wasn't time. She threw up and refused all foods and treats. My heart sank. No it was still time. God just prinked her ears one last time for me.
Since it was Wednesday the clinic is opened early to take in surgery clients. I hated to surprize them. We got there and I ran in to let them know then sat in my car with Bones until 8am. Ihad my hand in the carrier petting her and she purred, oh she purred for me. Thank you dear God thank you.
August 4th 2010
Daily Devontional
Aug 4th
He will keep your strong right up to the end, and he will keep you free from all blame on the great day when our Lord Jesus Christ returns. God will surely do this for you, for he always does just what he says.... -1 Corinthians 1:8-9
this is a promise of God's faithfulness to His own. All Day - day in, day out, year in and year out-God's faithfulness is great. Man, in his stubbornness and rebellion, may drift away from God, but though it all, "He remains faithful" (2 Timothy 213)
No matter the difficulty life throws your way, God has promised to "keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can't stand up against it. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you will not give in to it" (1 Corinthians 10:13) David was so convinced of the faithfulness of God that he coups say, “Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident." (Psalm 27:3)
On the other hand, God is faithful to execute His judgment upon those who reject Him even after he has repeatedly wanted them to repent. Gradually, but surely, He tightens the screws of justice until the person repents or brings about his own destruction.
As hard as it is to belies, some people actually do choose the path of destruction. In 2 Chronicles 36:13, we read that "Zedekiah was a hard and stubborn man, refusing to turn to the Lord, the God of Israel.” Following his example, the people of Israel grew more and more unfaithful, ignoring God's repeated warnings until finally "the Lords anger could no longer be restrained and there was no remedy" (2 Chronicles 36:16).
If life is uncertain right now, cling to the one certainty: God is faithful! You can be sure that” He will keep you strong right up to the end" (1 Corinthians 1:8
Aug 4th
He will keep your strong right up to the end, and he will keep you free from all blame on the great day when our Lord Jesus Christ returns. God will surely do this for you, for he always does just what he says.... -1 Corinthians 1:8-9
this is a promise of God's faithfulness to His own. All Day - day in, day out, year in and year out-God's faithfulness is great. Man, in his stubbornness and rebellion, may drift away from God, but though it all, "He remains faithful" (2 Timothy 213)
No matter the difficulty life throws your way, God has promised to "keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can't stand up against it. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you will not give in to it" (1 Corinthians 10:13) David was so convinced of the faithfulness of God that he coups say, “Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident." (Psalm 27:3)
On the other hand, God is faithful to execute His judgment upon those who reject Him even after he has repeatedly wanted them to repent. Gradually, but surely, He tightens the screws of justice until the person repents or brings about his own destruction.
As hard as it is to belies, some people actually do choose the path of destruction. In 2 Chronicles 36:13, we read that "Zedekiah was a hard and stubborn man, refusing to turn to the Lord, the God of Israel.” Following his example, the people of Israel grew more and more unfaithful, ignoring God's repeated warnings until finally "the Lords anger could no longer be restrained and there was no remedy" (2 Chronicles 36:16).
If life is uncertain right now, cling to the one certainty: God is faithful! You can be sure that” He will keep you strong right up to the end" (1 Corinthians 1:8
Aug. 5th 2010
Daily Devotional
August 05, 2010
Don't say, "I will get even for this wrong." Wait for the Lord to handle the matter.
-Proverbs 20:22
How difficult it is for our flesh to sit and wait! This proverb implores us not to take matters of revenge into our own hands and say, "I'll pay you back for this!" God's pace of justice is far slower than ours. He is long-suffering and full of grace, while we, on the contrary, are quick to judge and swift to repay.
David said, "Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord" (Psalm 27:14). Had Abram waited on the Lord for his miracle son, he would not have ventured into the fleshly union with Hagar (Genesis 16). The result of his impatience remains with us today in the ongoing problems in the Middle East.
The two lessons we must learn in order to obtain a promise are faith and patience (Hebrews 6:12). A large part of faith is simply refusing to yield to the thought that God somehow will be late. Though he may have felt nervous on the outside, David stayed confident on the inside. He waited patiently for God to act and said, "Yet I am confident that I will see the Lord's goodness while I am here in the land of the living" (Psalm 27:13).
You, too, will see the Lord's goodness if you learn to patiently wait upon Him in faith.
Daily Readings: Ezra 1:1-2:70 • 1 Corinthians 1:18-2:5
• Psalm 27:7-14 • Proverbs 20:22-23
August 05, 2010
Don't say, "I will get even for this wrong." Wait for the Lord to handle the matter.
-Proverbs 20:22
How difficult it is for our flesh to sit and wait! This proverb implores us not to take matters of revenge into our own hands and say, "I'll pay you back for this!" God's pace of justice is far slower than ours. He is long-suffering and full of grace, while we, on the contrary, are quick to judge and swift to repay.
David said, "Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord" (Psalm 27:14). Had Abram waited on the Lord for his miracle son, he would not have ventured into the fleshly union with Hagar (Genesis 16). The result of his impatience remains with us today in the ongoing problems in the Middle East.
The two lessons we must learn in order to obtain a promise are faith and patience (Hebrews 6:12). A large part of faith is simply refusing to yield to the thought that God somehow will be late. Though he may have felt nervous on the outside, David stayed confident on the inside. He waited patiently for God to act and said, "Yet I am confident that I will see the Lord's goodness while I am here in the land of the living" (Psalm 27:13).
You, too, will see the Lord's goodness if you learn to patiently wait upon Him in faith.
Daily Readings: Ezra 1:1-2:70 • 1 Corinthians 1:18-2:5
• Psalm 27:7-14 • Proverbs 20:22-23
Aug. 14th 2010
There was one thing I did with bones. Ever since a wee little kitten, I used to pick herr up under her pitts and hold her out to the world and say "some day this will all be yours" Just like on the Lion King. She never scoufed at it and just took it all in. Well on Saturday when I picked up her ashes I went to the library to pick up some DVD's. And right by my DVD's was this book. God is all around me, just trying to tell me it's ok. She is ok,I just now need to finialy except it and be ok with it.
Aug. 16th 2010
Daily Devotional August 16, 2010 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit.
-Psalm 34:18
So often when we walk through a crushing experience, we feel like God is a million miles away. The enemy tells us that God does not care and is not interested in our problems. David reminds us, however, that God is nearest to us when we are broken in heart.
When the earth was dark and without form, the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters (Genesis 1:2). Never forget: Whenever your life seems dark and no solution is in sight, the Spirit of God is actually hovering over you, guarding you in the midst of trial.
Someone once said, "When you have a broken heart, you must give God the broken part." David gave God his broken heart in repentance after his sin with Bathsheba and reminded God that "the sacrifice you want is a broken spirit. A broken and repentant heart, O God, you will not despise" (Psalm 51:17). God responded by healing David's broken heart and restoring his soul.
You must bring your broken heart to God and let Him heal it, for a "broken spirit saps a person's strength" (Proverbs 17:22). Go to Jesus with your broken heart, for He was anointed to "comfort the brokenhearted" (Isaiah 61:1). Why not reach out and ask the Holy Spirit to touch you where no human surgeon can? He is near. Let Him do His work right now.
Daily Readings: Nehemiah 11:1-12:26 • 1 Corinthians 10:14-33
• Psalm 34:11-22 • Proverbs 21:14-16
-Psalm 34:18
So often when we walk through a crushing experience, we feel like God is a million miles away. The enemy tells us that God does not care and is not interested in our problems. David reminds us, however, that God is nearest to us when we are broken in heart.
When the earth was dark and without form, the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters (Genesis 1:2). Never forget: Whenever your life seems dark and no solution is in sight, the Spirit of God is actually hovering over you, guarding you in the midst of trial.
Someone once said, "When you have a broken heart, you must give God the broken part." David gave God his broken heart in repentance after his sin with Bathsheba and reminded God that "the sacrifice you want is a broken spirit. A broken and repentant heart, O God, you will not despise" (Psalm 51:17). God responded by healing David's broken heart and restoring his soul.
You must bring your broken heart to God and let Him heal it, for a "broken spirit saps a person's strength" (Proverbs 17:22). Go to Jesus with your broken heart, for He was anointed to "comfort the brokenhearted" (Isaiah 61:1). Why not reach out and ask the Holy Spirit to touch you where no human surgeon can? He is near. Let Him do His work right now.
Daily Readings: Nehemiah 11:1-12:26 • 1 Corinthians 10:14-33
• Psalm 34:11-22 • Proverbs 21:14-16